He stands by the window, an old revolver in hand, and watches them come up.
Even in the boiling sun they walk as cats do in the rain: drenched, timid, careful.

 Walking like whispering. Zimbabweans. Just crossed over – he has seen others
like them. Many others. Watching from this same window. Seen them seep into
his country like water. He knows he will see even more; they never stop coming,
they are a tide.

His window faces a tight-fisted stretch of open country—all brown and dry and un-
giving. And then there is the dusty road that spans like God’s belt all the way to
Johannesburg and beyond. Red and endless. Always the Zimbabweans emerge
like apparitions from the bush after crossing the broad Limpopo River. When the
Limpopo is full he can stand at this window and listen to it heaving, churning log-
bearing muddy waters like a strong-limbed washer woman, famished crocodiles
holding their breath somewhere deep inside her belly.

But this has never stopped them, the Zimbabweans. They plunge into the
Limpopo, sometimes drowning, and, if they survive, rise like mists from the water
to cut holes in the border fence into his country. Then they plough through the
jungle, and then eventually onto this very road that runs in front of his house.
Headed to Jo’burg. What puzzles him, what he would really like to find out, is how
they leave no footprints on the earth, make no mark, and drop nothing. And how
it is that when they walk, like whispering, they do not cast shadows on the earth.

He has been standing at the window long enough for him not to know how long it
has been. But what he knows with certainty is that he needs to sit down and rest
his screaming knees. Yet somehow he cannot pull himself from the window, so he
merely shifts the weight on his feet, holds the gun tighter. He dug it out of his
storage after that boy Jo told him how some of them had tried to break into his
house the week before. Bloody criminals. If they think they can just break into his
country, and then into his house, he will show them. Just let them try it. Let them
try.

His late wife MaMhlophe would disapprove of the gun; she would probably even
go out there and give them food and water. MaMhlophe. MaMhlophe who gave
without thinking. MaMhlophe who believed every despair could be mended like a
damaged fence. MaMhlophe whom beggars knew by name. Thinking of his wife,
and her kindness, almost makes him put the gun away in shame, but he tells
himself that even his MaMhlophe would not have enough kindness for this. Not
for a country vomiting hordes and hordes of its people into theirs. No,
MaMhlophe, with all that kindness, enough of it to bury the broad Limpopo, would
not be prepared for this.

He caresses his graying beard and reminds himself he is not intending to do
anything bad; he is just doing what anyone would; standing at his window,
watching, and holding his gun in case he has to use it, after all these people are
not just people. They are also illegals–criminals; even the sun itself knows that.

An insect lands on his forehead and he slaps it dead without thinking. Pha! He
wipes it off with the back of his hand. He can see them clearly—they are close
now. The tall one in the red and black T-shirt carefully looking about him, and for
a minute he thinks the man is looking right through the window and into his eyes.
He tenses, tightens his hold on the gun. And then he sees the man turn and look
back at the other two. What is he saying to them?

He can see the strain scattered on the man’s face. Fatigue. And maybe
desperation? Or whatever makes a tall man with a small, round head and twigs of
arms choose to get up one day and walk away from everything he knows, walk to
another country where he has to move like he is there and not there at the same
time. Then comes the fat, short one in the white shirt and green cap, the one
walking with a limp. What happened to that one? Did he leave his country like
that, to make it all the way to South Africa on that foot?

It is the fat one’s carriage that makes him loosen the grip on the gun, makes him
almost drop it. Even with the limp, he reminds him of his one childhood friend,
with that proud gait of a lion. See how he holds his arms at his sides. See how his
head perches on his neck. Those poised shoulders. Just like his own friend,
Zuma. He almost smiles, thinking of his boyhood, distant, gone now. He has not
seen a resemblance like this and it makes him dizzy. But no, this he is looking at
is not his friend. He remembers the gun. Grips tighter.

And then comes the woman. The brightness of her yellow dress matching the red
road and going quite well with the brown country; matching so nicely he almost
wants more than anything for them to stop, stop right there in the middle of the
road so he can take it all in. She carries a basket in her arms, and it is the way
she carries it. Carries it unlike he himself has ever carried anything or seen
anything carried. He watches her and he is suddenly curious, suddenly hungry to
know what is in the basket. What can be in there that makes this woman without a
country carry an ordinary basket like she owns everything there is to own, like
she carries God?

Walking like cats in the rain; drenched, timid, uncertain. He sees them dodge
pools of water from the rain that is not there. No rain, just the sun. Directly
overhead, all bared teeth and fierce and roaring. They are moving away now, but
he still holds onto his gun. They pass the little anthill, then towards the baobab
tree. He knows they will stop there. They always stop at the tree, all of them, like
they have seen the baobab in their dreams, somebody—an ancestor perhaps,
telling them as they sleep, as soon as you cross and follow the red road running
through the settlement you will see a baobab broader than hope and there you
are supposed to rest.

And they rest. The woman and the tall one sitting down, their backs to him. The
fat one standing, leaning against the baobab. They do not look like resting
people. They are there and yet they are not there, like they left their tangible
selves back in their country, left them tucked away in empty matchboxes and
then slid inside old, falling-apart shoes for safekeeping.

And then he hears it. It takes him by surprise and he almost smashes his head
against the window. His ears thunder. Thunder. The grip on the gun again. He
sees the dust leap from the ground, flying all over, and then the jeep boiling
towards the baobab. He catches himself shouting and he does not know what he
is shouting, and at whom he is shouting. But he is standing at his window,
shouting, and no one will hear. They are running now. The woman first, and then
the tall one, then the fat one last. Running like spilling.

He sees the jeep jolt to a stop, and the border policemen pounce on the fat one.
He must have been toppled to the ground because he can see the policemen’s
black batons rise and fall, rise and fall towards the ground: beating, pummeling,
flogging. He watches the batons, the bodies, the arms rising and falling, rising
and falling. Like a river breathing. After a while he begins wondering when it will
stop, surely the fat one must be subdued by now. He has to be, all that
clobbering.

But the batons rise and fall, rise and fall like the roar of an injured lion, and he
just stands there, watching, his hand tighter than ever on his gun, suddenly
wanting for it all to stop, for them to stop because somehow to him it is no longer
the fat one they are clobbering now, but his own childhood friend Zuma, and can
hear his screams for help in that voice he knows so well, can see the blood
oozing from the cuts, taste his friend’s fear, feel his raw, beaten flesh in the hand
that is also holding the gun.

And then suddenly the beating stops and they pick him up, toss him in the back
of the jeep, and it takes off down the road. All he can see is dust now.
Mushrooms of clouds of it. He thinks of the tall one, and the woman. Will they be
caught? Will they be flogged? What will the woman’s dress look like after they roll
her in the dust? He waits and waits. And then finally, a cloud of dust again and
the jeep charges down the road like a terrible beast, going back the way it had
come. More dust and a rush of yellow is all he sees. The basket. He remembers
the woman’s basket, remembers her fleeing the jeep without it.

The basket. He rushes to the door, unlocks it, and hurries to the baobab, not
feeling the sun mauling his back, not feeling the ache in his knees. The basket.
He finds it under the tree. A newspaper whose red letters scream "Zimbabwe is
mine" stirs inside. He pokes with his gun, pushes the paper aside. He is not
prepared for the two little eyes that quietly watch him, not prepared he is dazed
and his heart roars. He stands there looking at it and looking at it and looking at
it, until he finally crouches and picks it up, letting his gun drop there in the dust
and not stopping to retrieve it because he knows that to shield the baby from the
sun, he has to hold it with both hands, hold it close to his heart like he is carrying
God. - This story first appeared on munyori.com.